已经这么老了，但我还是不会说话。

There are 2 kinds of 不会说话: one pertains to the inability of a person to speak up, and the other refers to the ability of a person to perpetually make the wrong comments. I believe that I am diagnosed with the former, though sometimes I may be guilty of the latter as well.

有时候不是我不要说话，只是我遇到人时我脑子变空。That’s so true about me. When I complain on the phone, I can talk as if I speak so well, but when I meet a person face-to-face, I seem to have a sudden loss for words. I don’t know the reason, but when I meet up with people, including friends, my mind will suddenly short-circuit. Brain juice doesn’t seem to flow (not as if I have a lot in the first place =P) and suddenly I’m lost for words, especially given my 后知后觉/迟屯/blurness. At times, perhaps the other party may even think that I a bit kind of disrespectful as to them, I may appear 人在心不在，虽然事实不是这样的… Haiz… And when I suddenly things come to my mind, the opportunity to speak has slipped… Maybe I need to make my brain work harder and faster…

有时候不是我不要说话，只是我习惯不讲话。Being alone for majority of my life, I am used to not talking. Seriously, after all, no one talks to himself/herself for the entire day…

有时候不是我不要说话，只是我没有东西说。My life has been not been that exciting. Some of my friends have interesting jobs, meet interesting people, or have interesting events in their lives. But I lead a boring life of work-home-work-home during weekdays and home-home-home-home during weekends. Oh well… What is there that I can share??

讲话，真的是一门高深的学问。其实，说的话并没有任何恶意，但不是每个时候对方都能了解自己的意思。解释越多，却给别人的感觉好像很敷衍，但不解释又会被误解。而有些时候，说越多，好像错越多。在对的时候说对的东西还真不容易。这个世界，有人讲话，就总该有人聆听吧。